crazeecookie's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- is it a crime... Gosh I hate the fact that people seem to debate and HATE the fact that I am single. I'm young black and free of all attachments. I supposed because I've been tagged "cute" that someone should "want me" enough to save me to be their own. No no no! In case you did not know, I am not particularly fond of the idea of marriage. Not in the traditional sense, because I feel like for me, marriage is the thing to avoid. I personally cannot fathom myself loving someone so much that I want them to sacrifice EVERYTHING for me. Maybe I'm thinking in a youthful, ignorant, anti-romantic, pessimistic sense but every time I have really loved someone (though it was only ONCE) I let him go. I cannot imagine spending the rest of my life ..being someone's wife. I HATE relationships. I such at them. I hate feeling like I have to answer to someone or really pretend like I give two hoots about the way that someone feel, because most likely I really won't. I hate the arguing, the making up, the monogamy of it all. Basically, I suck at being someone's girlfriend. Like..I suck a lot lol. Especially now that boys are finding out I’m waiting until marriage…most are turned off at the idea of no pre-martial affairs. Secondly, I don't want kids. To be perfectly honest, I really don't. I do not think that EVERYONE in this world is cut out to be a parent and I know that I'm not. People say that it'll happen naturally but I figure why chance it? I know I'm imperfect and not without sin, and now that I'm older I know that I am NOT the one to have/ raise kids. It's just not me. All these things kept in mind, once people find out that I am this abstinent, single, anti relationship chick...it's like I have three heads or something. I'm young and I don't know what I want. So in the meantime, instead of wasting time talking to random Joes and pretending to ACTUALLY listen to what they're saying...I remain single. Is that a crime? 11:48 p.m. - December 19, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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