crazeecookie's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ~*Eric*~ So...I wasted ALMOST TWO FUCKIN YEARS of my life with this asshole. Talking to him, having relations and all the other good things that “couples” do. Except we weren’t a couple. He said he wasn’t ready for a relationship. And me, being so in love with him I believed him. I ate up all the lies he told me and just…believed him. Why am I so dumb? WHY? I cried for my broken heart today. I cried like I never cried before. Then as usually, I put on a happy face and went about my day. My insides are killing me. I love this man! I gave him all my time, energy, and love. I trusted him and all I cared about was his happiness. I put everything out there for him and all I wanted was him. I risked my future for him. He has a girlfriend. Yes, he has a girl. He’s been telling me that he’s too young for a relationship for the last few months and he can go with this broad? WTF is that. I am so hurt, angry, upset and sad all at one time; I don’t even know how I feel anymore. Everyone’s telling me that’s he’s not worth it, but he is to me. I’m tired of feeling like I’m alone in this world. No one understands me. The pain felt from a broken heart is indescribable. God help me… 6:04 p.m. - April 20, 2005 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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