crazeecookie's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ~*I Need A Soldier*~ It’s weird that I associate weakness with attention. Yet I still need that constant feeling of attention in order to feel happy. I was talking with the boy I’m currently talking to,Eric again, and I was mad because he doesn’t always speak to me in the hallway when he sees me. He asked me if I wanted him to just show me more attention and I was denying it like crazy. I’m weird. I like the chase of the game. It’s no fun for me if a boy is constantly in my face showing me attention. In case everyone didn’t know I have a history with bad boys. I like a gangsta. I like a thug. Like Eric said to me last week everybody wanna be with a thug. I guess that’s me. I like a boy who is just the total polar opposite of me. I think tats are sexy. I like arguing with boys. I like boys who tell me shut up when I say something dumb. As weird as it sound I like fighting with my man. Yes I mean fighting. Challenge whatever I say and step to me when you have a problem. I live a thug. Not too bad, but I love a bad boy. It’s not fun dealing with a boy if he’s constantly in my face. I want to work for his attention. I despise those boys that always need me to be hugged up one them and tell them I love them. When I finally get his attention, I want our relationship to be open. Keep it real with me and I’ll keep it really with you. I’ll tell you how it is and I expect him not to lie to me. If I’m talking to another boy, I’ll tell him and I expect him to do the same. I mean I’ll tell him the truth if he asks. I just want to chill with somebody and be myself with a level of commitment without titles. ::sigh:: Like my man Diddy said, “I need a boy!” Opps!! I think I have one….. With all my thoughts and emotions, Crazee 12:36 a.m. - December 27, 2004 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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