crazeecookie's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ~*Sexual Encounters*~ Sigh. I swear when a person wants to have sex they will do the craziest shit. So lately I’ve been really sexually frustrated and I have not been able to think about any thing else. I stayed home this morning and I called E and asked him if he wanted to come though and see me. Of course he said yeah and he got to my house after 9. So I already knew what I wanted to do and what he wanted to do so it was no kind of secret what was going to go down. After all that foreplay [I don’t want to share all my intimate secrets, that’s a little too much] he went for the kill. He came condomless and me being my dumb, horny self let it happen regardless. Damn! Since I haven’t had sex in two years (I can’t believe it’s been that long!) it hurt soooo bad and it was like it was my first time all over again. Then he try to put my on top, thinking it wouldn’t hurt that bad but it did. I swear it was like riding a horse! Up,down, over, over! Damn! But it was still hurting (it was on the couch and he was sitting up) so we switched places again and he told me I was bleeding and just looked at me. He looked in my eyes for the longest; I think he thought that I was a virgin. I’m not, but I wasn’t about to just come out and ask him that. So after a quick kiss he left [he had to take his aunt to work and was already late] and I got ready for school. Funny, because the experience in addition to confirming my feelings for him, made me want the dick even more. Damn..I’m still trying to figure out why I love this boy so much. It’s secretive love. I know I’ll never tell him. That would change everything. And I don’t know what I’d do if I ever lost him. With all my thoughts and emotions, Crazee 4:30 p.m. - February 16, 2005 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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